strange feeling.

i woke up.
i dreamt about something.
i cried.
i prayed.
then he called me today.
and it's all coming back to me now.
i have to stop this feeling.
damn.
"cmon jana, get back to yesterday.
he did not call, you did not hear his voice. he did not say take care of yourself.
you don't miss him. cmon, convince these to yourself. you don't. dont be stupid of falling again."

damn. here comes again my heart beating so fast.
my mind is trembling around.
no, no and no.

get back jana.