today

I messed up yesterday.
Said the wrong words.
Took the wrong turn, loved the wrong person,
reacted the wrong way.
I spoke when i should've listened,
walked away when i should have waited,
judged when i should have trusted,
indulged wheni should have resisted.

I messed up yesterday
but i'll mess up more if i let yesterday's mistakes sabotage today's attitude.

Today's a new day, i'll live it well.


[banana]

like every waiting one unseen and silent.

yea. we dont need to rush things, if something's bound to happen, it will happen..

in the right time,

with the right person

and for the best reason...

~Im here, i'll hold your hand when u are ready to hold mine~

Sand, Sea and the Sun. Boracay here I come.

Been stressed lately for no reason. Been a sad clown for some days.

Hrmn. I need some fresh air. And im going to my most comfy place on earth. I need to be with the three "S", the Sea, the Sand and the Sun.

Been feeling so cold.

Imma get myself burned! :)

Regency hotel is where we're gonna stay.

Get some Tan Lines and a Henna Tattoo

Gonna party at beach side bars :)

The Famous Boracay Sand

Must do parasailing.

The Beach

Im gonna get myself fresh Fruit Shakes :)

Imma try Avocado Shake with milk. whip! yumyum!

I wanna have my 1st honeymoon here when i get married. haha.

Since I was a kid, Ive always wanted wedding. And ive been dreaming for a beach wedding under the sun. (sunset would be the best) =)

Imma Chillax and have a great great time.

~ wish i could be with you ~

~ ilabu~

banana

RCBC Towers

Ayala, Makati

Ive been working in this building since 08 08 08 :)


:p

looking back to the year 2 days ago.

My 2008.

hmm..im suppose to write a lot of things now since it's the 2nd day of 2009.. but sh*t. nuthin's comin out of my mind. im kinda lost yet, stucked by the song im listening to. "Tell me Where it Hurts" (lmfao) hahaha!

hmm.. well anyways.. i'll just write random things then.. happy and happiest - sad and scariest things about 2008.

Febuary, 1st time i got out of the country.. i went to Malaysia. Stayed at Petaling Jaya, went to Kuala Lumpur and Taiping.

Ive got to meet new friends like Cheemeng, Jun Hao, Baby, Jeepeng, Ram, Iris and Suezhen. There was never a dull moment with these people. ^^ love em.

June, 2nd time to visit Malaysia. This time, i've been craving for nasi lemak. And atlast, ive been to the Petronas Towers in Kuala Lumpur and been to Genting Highlands. And this time, Ive got to see him for the very last time.. I wasnt really expecting it would be the last time.=p (we'll get into that in a while.)

I've travelled back home alone. For the very first time..
I actually really love to travel but to ride ALONE in an airplane for 3hours is one of the most saddest and scariest thing on earth for me..haha.

September was a crap. boom. i died this month. Literally, i broke down.

I was fragile.

October, I had my new hair cut. I got the shortest haircut in my 20 years. haha

November, went out of town with my super girlfriends.

December, my hair is already shoulder length..

1st day of December, I got promoted at work. "Job well done", they say.

I won some cash in our company christmas party. haha. fun moments i say..

25th of December. Yes its christmas.

Dec. 26 - no more teens.. no more TWEN-teen. haha. now im twenty one. Yea!

first love by utada hikaru

nuthin big actually. just rmmberd somethin bout this song.

it was one silent afternoon, that time he's holding me tight in his arms, im feeling his chest at my back. we were listening to his phone's music, that time the song collide was playing then utada hikaru's first love. while the song was playing, suddenly tears fell down my eyes. was carried away by the song's melody. thinkin about the fact that he's living in 2 months.. he wiped the tears on my face while saying those sweet words. "I'll come back for you honey, I promise that."

damn. here i go again. hurting.

strange feeling.

i woke up.
i dreamt about something.
i cried.
i prayed.
then he called me today.
and it's all coming back to me now.
i have to stop this feeling.
damn.
"cmon jana, get back to yesterday.
he did not call, you did not hear his voice. he did not say take care of yourself.
you don't miss him. cmon, convince these to yourself. you don't. dont be stupid of falling again."

damn. here comes again my heart beating so fast.
my mind is trembling around.
no, no and no.

get back jana.